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In my first 12 years of childhood, I had no idea what Christianity was all about. Living in the rural area of Kapit, Sarawak, I was raised up in a family which practiced paganism and animism.

When I was about to sit for the UPSR examination, I was invited by a friend to join the Roman Catholic gathering to pray for our upcoming examination. I attended just to get the so-called “blessing”. But I believe that that might have been the starting point of my spiritual journey and my search for the truth.

Entering middle school, I got active with all the services and programs held by that particular system. I attended all these just to fulfill my responsibilities as a “Christian”. I even succeeded in finishing the first two sacraments. I was very proud for that achievement and thought that it made me a perfect “Christian”. So I continued.

Unfortunately, I was just following blindly with no real knowledge of God’s love and what it meant for me. I knew I was a sinner, and that heaven and hell are real, but found no answer as to how to settle this matter upon my heart. In fact, I didn’t even have a Bible, let alone read the Word of God. I knew that Jesus died for the world but could not associate Him personally with me. His sacrificial death, resurrection, and ascension were just factual matters for me. The matter of spiritual satisfaction, and of the surety and salvation of my soul and spirit had never been dealt with truly and solemnly.

As time passed, I begin to thirst and long for the truth. I was tired of going to the Sunday services with no real meaning. Heaven was not a sure thing for me. I had doubts about my spiritual state, and many questions lingered around in my mind with no one to refer to for answers.

To seek more, I attended other denominations’ gatherings. Initially, I liked those gatherings because the attendees seemed joyful during their worship and singing accompanied with dancing and loud musical instruments. However, those neither satisfied me nor settled my conscience before God. Following that, more confusion came in. I began to be concerned with what were the “rights” and “wrongs” in Christianity — from worship to fellowship and other practices among denominations — amidst their criticism then towards one another.

Since no one gave me a solid and scriptural answer, I turned to God and prayed that He might show Himself and lead me to the truth.

Upon receiving my SPM results, Form Six was the last option before me. I was transferred to a new school and that marked a new chapter of my life. I met a new friend from another denomination that happened to be more open to discuss about the issues in Christianity.
While there were many issues to discuss, there was one particular verse in the Bible that he confronted me with, which was Deuteronomy 5 verse 8:

“Thou shalt not make thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the waters beneath the earth:..”

Oh! That really struck to my heart!
Thus I was convicted to leave the system I was in for a long time.

At the same school, (the one I transferred to for Form Six), one Christian teacher organized what was called a “Bible Seminar.” I wrote my name down for attendance without knowing that my decision to be there that day would change my entire life and destiny forever. The preacher was introduced as Mr. John See. To my surprise he was not from any denomination that I knew. Without him mentioning from which group of Christians he was, he presented a slide show of pictures of believers that were in the same faith all around the world. Next, he just taught and preached the Word of God straightaway.

On the fourth night of Bible Seminars, (which was the final night), he opened a Question and Answer session, letting us write the questions that we had and put them into a box. Thus I took the opportunity to ask the questions that really mattered to my heart all the while:

“How can we know whether we can go to Heaven or not? Am I accepted in Heaven?”

To my amazement, he answered solely from the Bible, all the questions submitted, including mine!
Answering my questions, there came the golden verses that were enough to answer my issues and doubts — and most importantly, enough to fulfill my spiritual longing:

Romans 10, verse 9: “That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.”
Verse 10: “For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.”

Oh how touched and joyful I was! This was the real promise and confirmation from God Himself to those who put their trust in Christ and His saving work on the cross of Calvary! There and then, my feelings were just like the hymn writer expresses:

“I need no other argument, I need no other plea, it is enough that Jesus died, and that he died for me”.

Thus, I accepted Christ that night as my personal Savior. It was October 2012, and I was 18 years old. With the full knowledge of the significance of His work on the cross and His resurrection, I am now sure that I am accepted before God because of Christ. Finally, here is the One who could fulfill my spiritual longing and quench my thirst for the truth.
just took Him personally, putting my faith in His saving work. My sins were laid upon Him, and I am free from their penalty.

Now I know what salvation is, and what Christ means to me: His sacrifice and His resurrection – it was all for me!

I had to repent from my own old ways and turn to Him. I needed to do just that. There was no need to follow procedures, no need for my good works, and no need for the confession of my sins to others. It had to be from my heart, and between God and myself personally.

It was done and accomplished 2000 years ago by the Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ. Because He loved me, He died for me. What grace for a vile sinner like me. Now I am a child of God, and I can be happy all the days of my life.

From thence, I became His disciple, now living continually in His care until I meet Him face to face.

I was baptized and am in happy fellowship with the true believers and followers of Christ in the local assembly.

Be assured that God has His own way and time, and will answer the longing of those who seek for Him, silently but miraculously! Salvation is of the Lord.
To God be the glory, great things He hast done!

I end with these words:

"For He that is mighty hath done to me great things; and holy is His name."
Luke 1 verse 49

Written by a recipient of God's Grace.

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